Late Night Ramblings

I just watch the video of Everybody Hurts by R.E.M..again,and it was very moving....again.
Whenever I watch the video, the initial few minutes just fill me with sadness, the way they show how everybody has their own sorrows and their own personal hells is very poignant. Specially the part where the little kid is dealing with issues of realization of death. It brings back memory of a portion of my childhood, which I would gladly like to forget.

Then something happens.. everybody comes out of their car, they sort of free themselves from their prison of sorrow and find comfort in each other,and the feeling at that time is indescribable for me. Its like a release, the type you feel after you cry...after you let it go, so that you can hold on.
I guess thats why they say sorrow decreases when you share it.

Somebody commented in youtube that the song made him keep his faith when it was shaking. That just made me start thinking about faith in general and faith in god in particular.

I do not have faith in any religion or in a concept of a God who is watching over us and protecting us. I believe in spirituality and that there is a divine force, but at the same time I think that individually, we are too inconsequential in the grand scheme of things for the divine force to care about us as a person.

I so so wish that I had faith.I am thankful (to something) that people have faith in god. I see people going through absolutely hopeless situations, but they still have hope, a feeling of security, that somebody is watching over them, somebody stronger is there to carry them through this. Its almost like the feeling a child has when he knows his mom and dad are around. For me, I know there is no divine power working for me, and that is my curse. And sometimes I can really feel what being an orphan feels like. But that is my curse, cause I dont have faith....and also I almost never cry.